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Uphill Battle: My Struggles With Weight Loss

Hello everyone! I hope you are all staying safe and healthy. I’m not going to lie it’s been a strange few days for me here in quarantine and they haven’t been the best.

These last few days I have been dealing with stomach cramps at night and now I have been batting a headache all day (I promise it’s not Corona haha). If any of you have very experienced these symptoms then you may understand how infuriating and debilitating they can be.

For me I have dealt with stomach issues since I was 12. I used to have stomach cramps and aches that would keep me up all night long and force me to usually pass out from exhaustion on the bathroom floor. When I was 13 I was diagnosed with Insulin Resistance, which means my body doesn’t recognize the insulin being made so sugar does not get broken down as well as it should.

The stomach aches were caused by me eating too much sugar or carbs, or any form of binge-eating. This lead to me having to change my diet and start to work on my weight, for both my health and my confidence. I wanted to look good and feel good – but this has proved to be an uphill battle ever since.

I have struggled with my weight and working out for most of my life. Some days are really good, but my bad days are really bad. Recently I have realized that instead of my horrible stomach aches, sugar causes me to have pounding migraines. My head hurts all day and the only thing I have found that truly helps is sleeping it off. But I can’t really sleep off a headache when it happens at one in the afternoon – I still have a whole day ahead of me!

It took me a long time to realize that I wasn’t going to get any better if I didn’t put in the work. As much as I wanted to be healthy and lose weight – actually fixing the problem proved to be difficult.

I wish I had more answers to how to get better and how to stay healthier, but I really don’t. I still struggle with my weight every day.

But I know that I’m not alone in my struggles.

Weight loss has proven to be one of the hardest battles of my life, but God has never left my side during it. Even when I would work out and then turn around and binge an entire bag of chips, or when I would eat enough ice cream in one night to land me on the bathroom floor, again – He never left me.

As much as we think that weight loss is a journey that we have to take on our own, it’s not. It’s a constant uphill battle that can’t be beat without support.

I finally learned that this year by allowing my mom to be my support. We joined Weight Watchers together and have been working out at home during this quarantine. She pushes me to work harder and to do it for the right reasons.

Even though this quarantine has got me in a funk and I’m struggling pretty badly right now, I know I’m not alone in this struggle. I have a support system of people who are helping me in this journey and a God who is walking along side me – holding me – the entire way.

So if you’re someone who is struggling with weight loss right now, know that you aren’t alone. Find a support system and let others help you. Talk to God about what’s going on, because he wants to help you through it.

It’s an uphill battle, but you aren’t alone.

With love,


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